how to tell a person if u hate him/her?

Im totally despised!

right now im feeling disgusted with a boy.. and kinda hard to do something about it?
telling him that what he's doin is annoying me? how could that be possible?

straight to his face, telling him that im sick of him, and ask him to disappear out of my sight..

well.. could somebody ever give me an advice about this.. of telling the person that we hate, face to face, that we hate them? if anybody can do that, im sure i want to follow him/her, without slightly care about the others' feeling and straight away scold him and humiliate him in front of everyone that i hate him, but then what?

even though  this sounds cool but i bet none of us ever done this, and even if any of them done it, they would definitely felt regret with what they have done, isn't it? im sure this is a pain that anyone had to go through and its really something that we can't avoid.. and yeah, we disgust a person but we can't do anything about it.. it is one of a few problems that i found unsolved in my life no matter when.. to tell him/her that we are feeling bad about them, sick of them, annoyed, they're an eyesore to us.. what a reckless thing to do when we are really honest at this kind of moment but i think we can't really doing that depending on one of the reason.. everyone is not perfect and of course, we ourselves are included.

what do we expect if somebody, especially the ones that we always thought that he/she is our best friend suddenly explode in the middle of public and shout to us "would you please stop this? im already sick of you! don't you know that im very annoyed with what you're doing? you think i am an idiot here, walking right next to a foolish like you and act whole like dummy, pretending i see nothing?! im sick with you!!" and straight away leaving us while everyone in the surrounding looking at us with a "punishing" gaze.. poeple might think that we're the one who screwed up and they put the blame on us while we're still in foggy moments...

i wish i could do something like this but i know, in the end, what would i do if the situation is vice versa...

should or should not, we have to put our anger out of the body, but not with the way "bombing" the person we hate in front of people. but what im feeling right now is not that.. im just annoyed, but i cant stop the feeling that he's an eyesore to me.. i wish i can get rid of that feeling

what i know is one thing, right now im in the phase of controlling my anger, and unfortunately its eating my soul from inside. my mind easily get annoyed over a small thing and my anger, my hatred towards human become much greater.. before this, when i used to be so hot headed, i will do anything frantically and letting out my anger with many forms, but i feel that is also stupid. so, what should i do? should i be angry? and if not, do i have to be stupid, hiding my anger deep inside and in the end, people will get surprised when there's a young girl dying of heart attack? doesn't it sound funny?

so which one is better? letting out your anger or just keep it in the cave? if we cant get angry, then who we are? robot? a dog? sorry to say, but even a dog had a "fever in his heart", meaning here a dog also can get sick and suddenly get mad at us and biting us without reasons.. even a dog had a feeling.. but even if i want to be angry, what should i do? throwing things to the people that we hate? kill them? curse them? is there any better things to do... im helpless in this dilemma.. im incapable of controlling this; MY ANGER.. coz its born underneath one thing that grows very well and blended finely with my soul.. HATRED

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Some of Great Quotes... ponder it

"Siapa saya di dunia ini? Ah, ini suatu teka-teki yang amat hebat!" ~Lewis Carroll

 "Diri manusia itu kecil tetapi dalam diri manusia itu terdapat suatu alam yang besar" ~Saidina Ali

"orang yang hanya fikirkan tentang diri sendiri tidak akan dikenang dan dirasai bila ketiadaannya." ~Tertullian

     -source: mutiara pelajar; prof. Izzi, Telaga Biru

"Happiness is where we find it, but rarely where we seek it" ~J. Petit Senn

"Those things of real worth in life are worth going to any length in love and respect to safeguard" ~Julia Butterfly Hill

"Avoid praise, but do not be ashamed of reproach" ~unknown

"Happiness is when what you think and what you say and what you feel are in harmony" ~Mahatma Gandhi

"Always have a song on your heart and you will be on a good note" ~Christina Pagliarulo

"Have you seen the future? its with you in your thoughts!" ~Riccardo Ferrari

"Celebrate that which you share with others - for their joy, happiness, and love shall bring you wealth beyond measure"~ Rio Godfrey

"Its never too late to have a happy childhood" ~ Tom Robbins

"Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any one thing" ~Abraham Lincoln

"You're happiest while you're making the greatest contribution" ~Robert Kennedy

"People with many interest live not only longest, but happiest" ~George Allen

"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier" ~M. Teresa

to be continued...

my two Uruha's..

I have known two uruha's in my life, 1 is direct.. another is indirect

1st is my most beloved kuroneko, Kurayami Uruha.. the one ive raised since it was born in my wardrobe back then.. i met him early in the morning around 2.45am, somewhere in 2nd week of november.. how nostalgic..

2nd picture is my favorite a.k.a the respected lead guitar of The GazettE, Uruha @ Kouyou Takashima..
this guy is totally driving me crazy.. i wish i cld meet him in person..

the point is.. these 2 are already an important ones in my life, but none of them i can ever get close..
bcoz what had happened to my ruined family, ive missed the opportunity to have my cat.. and Uruha, he's so far away that i can reach.. and any how, Japan in crisis nowadays so it is supporting th reason i cant meet Uruha.. T_T

life is so sad for me but i try to accept things slowly.. i wld always hope my life wld have recover but im thankful, iam coz im quite lucky to have many people supporting me at the back.. Arigatou, hontouni.. minna-san... 

The Gazette

Even though im not officially a member of The gazette Fanclub, i would always encourage you fans of the gazette out there to visit the gazette fanclub website

http://www.thegazettefc.com/

this is the nice site for people to know a bit about the latest info of the gazette... (i hope Lexii dont mind im promoting this.. haha)

well, thats it. (my first attempt of giving information, hope it'll help..)

Myself

Well.. not much i can story about me.. this is my very first kick-start into this kind of blogging world..

to anyone who might interested to read anything I'll post, thanks in advance and apologize if there are mistakes and might be sensitive to some people, well its my mind's paintbrush, can't help but publishing anything that goes through my mind and my soul..

born as Libra's, blood type B; I am black and purple fanatic, likes cats so much and my life is quite incomplete without music, especially The GazettE and Avenged Sevenfold..

my sanctuary is books, coz i feel very comfortable to live with it.. i love to write and i love to think every second of my life..

trivia:
*I love cars; even though im scared to drive, actually i crave to race
*Fan of heavy metal songs since middle school and my first is avenged sevenfold, upon suggestion of my brother. Later on i start to like Gazetto, on my own 'discovery'
*Likes Uruha (Gazetto's Lead Guitar) very much, while at first i thought that he was the only girl of his band since he is so beautiful =P
*I just cant figure out why.. i am a fanatic of mostly japanese stuff, anything is possible accept for the professional talks.. i love the language, the custom, not quite sure why so.. hm..
*im quite simple minded - i always express my feelings clearly form my face and my writing..
*people always thought im friendly but actually.. im sober, anti-social and my aura is 'dark' whenever there are humans..